Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The Child Angel





Let your life come amongst them like a flame of light, my child,
unflickering and pure, and delight them into silence.

They are cruel in their greed and their envy,
their words are like hidden knives thirsting for blood.

Go and stand amidst their scowling hearts, my child,
and let your gentle eyes fall upon them like the
forgiving peace of the evening over the strife of the day.

Let them see your face, my child, and thus know the
meaning of all things, let them love you and love each other.

Come and take your seat in the bosom of the limitless, my child.
At sunrise open and raise your heart like a blossoming flower,
and at sunset bend your head and in silence
complete the worship of the day.

Friday, April 16, 2010


Sometimes it's just not enough for people....no matter how sorry you are or how apologetic you may feel they will still find reasons to ruin it all for you; absolutely inconsiderate of the fact that somewhere even they were wrong.....
recently i read somebody's blog shown to me by a friend and yes i was pissed for sometime but then i guess some people will never grow up they will make the same mistakes and then completely blame the others....
i too have made mistakes and i have also blamed some but i also accept that somewhere i was also wrong... i wish i could correct those mistakes but ...., but yes i do pray everyday in my heart to bring in eons of happiness in the lives of those i hurt during my journey... in this life... i really cant do a cltr z here..otherwise things would be very different...
I am no angel; to some am a witch and honestly i have no problems with that at least they see me as pure evil...but my mistake was i was living a lie that i never knew existed and as i grow another year old i will still say sorry to everyone i hurt... that's all that i can say....
this may also be amusing to some and some may be thinking about what i am scheming next. some may even laugh it out aloud seeing a witch trying to turn into a saint but i guess m done keeping all that inside.... it was time i belched it out believe it or not...I am sorry!!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010


long time back mom said,"when you grow as old as me you will know why i am soooo against everything that you do.... why i wont let you wear just anything, just why i wont let you stay out of house soooo late at nyt and why i wont let you date so early...."
her list continued and the other day when i held the kid for the first time in life i knew why she never let me do all that...... being a mother is not an easy thing and the responsibilities that come with motherhood are even more challenging!!!
but whatever....!!! it still feels amazing to hold the kid and see the future in her big blue eyes especially when you know you are going to live your childhood once again but sooooo mommy like :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

MAGIC OF HOPE

Hope is that bird that clings on to our soul when the world leaves us all alone. Most of the times it is the only word that keeps me moving, and all the time I am hoping for the best. You may have been bereft of all the things in life but the only thing that will stay with u through trying times is hope. It’ll sings to u n lift your spirits high. That’s when you’re ready to face any thing that comes your way, there is something deep down that motivates you to achieve the unattainable and that little thing is hope.

Till some time back, life had become so very insipid; I had no reason to live for thus hoping for the best, was the only thing I could do; the only problem was that I had no reason to hope for; then god gave me a reason in form of an angel.

I saw hope gleaming in his eyes and somewhere felt everything was going to be all right.
Don’t know as to how many of us hope for things all our lives. Some hope to live longer, some hope to win things they call conquests, desperately; some just hope to move on and some want the dead to live… the only thing that we don’t do at all is not hope. We do that almost every second minute… Life would be so insipid the day we do that; it would be the end of the world to not hope, imagine…!

You can see the inception of it in our very existence. As kids we begin hoping for things and when we grow up we still keep hoping, I guess that’s the only constant thing in life apart from change. Yet all our lives we hope to relive those moments of our life that made us the happiest then. Hope.. it’s such a soothing word. It is like water in a desert, food for the insatiable hunger, a thought to a creator, life to the dead and a reason for still keep dreaming of a better life. It’s just a four letter word yet there is something about it that overpowers our existence.

So I finish it here and for all those who think they’ve lost a lot of things in life, start looking at the brighter side of things. You may have lost everything but there is one thing that you will never lose; hope…. Keep hoping and you will get everything back someday, that’s the magic of HOPE!!

What was…was!

A countless pages turned,
Many a minutes burned
Every instance the same thought
I am trying to conceal that blood clot!
I am weary and my soul burns
Every moment waiting to return
To the person I was
However, the time is lost….

There is nothing from the past that
I want to connect with
Those were the insane moments
I had to live with….
But I won’t deny,
Somewhere still,
I remember the aged brick walls,
The ancient classrooms
And the random talks…

I still miss some,
And I feel really dumb
to have lost them to the crowd,
And this despicable cloud,
of memories again…..
and this excruciating pain,

In my dreams, I still see places,
I remember treading on a similar path,
I remember the mornings &,
I remember the dark.
Exactly the way it used to be
But now I know it is just a dream….

But if I lost it all
It wasn’t exactly my fault….
I still believe I am not the only guilty
I still believe I wasn’t all that wrong.
I did what was expected of me
I did it to make you happy
Nonetheless I hardly care
Today I live with no remorse or fear…

Thursday, January 21, 2010


so many of us go through heartbreak's daily.... so many forget to love...... so many fall in love all over again....soooo many in such a small world!!!